Monday, July 18, 2016

Why cry?

As I prepared to take Sister Sheena (my cat) to the vet to have her put down, I took the above picture. Sheena couldn't stay still and could no longer walk without falling over and had stopped eating and drinking. It was time to move on for both of us.

I had known it was coming and was blessed with time to prepare and slowly let go though I didn't share that with anyone. Not everyone is kind and compassionate. Some revel in other's suffering. So I prefer to keep such struggles private. Even those that outwardly act compassionate, inwardly enjoy the suffering of others. Humans are competitive and we sometimes feel better when we know others do not have it as good as we do. It's often on a very subconscious level.

Even while she was healthy, I seemed to know something was coming and took Sheena on her first hike to Ruffner Mountain to Hawk's View to see the city for her birthday on April 23rd, 2016. Since she was blind, she couldn't see the view but it is a very good memory in my mind and heart.

I have a few pics of her before she was hit by a car and lost her sight. You can see a very independent spirit in her. She was friendly and loving but it was distant. After the accident, we both started to realize how much we loved and needed each other.

So now when I pass Dr. Kendall Harris' office, I think of Sheena Easton (my previous cat) as well as Sister Sheena since they both passed on in his office. Thankfully, I was there to hold Sister Sheena in my arms as we put her to sleep and stopped her heart. It was a hard thing to do but she's no longer suffering and that's a good thing.

Bless you Dr. Kendall Harris and your staff for giving me Sister Sheena as well as caring for her so lovingly all her life. My life is better for the knowing of all of you.